Well, im starting to not trust that things will get any better. Things have only gotten worse since the stuff that occured in the earlier months of 2021.

Im starting to wonder if i exist, if anything exists. Am i real? Is this a simulation? I dont know where i want to be. Im lost and nowhere feels like home.

Gtg

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And what would happen, if i waited a few more years? No, i dont trust that things will go back to normal. I dont trust what they said. They have no connection to me anymore.

Its right there, why am i instinctually restraining myself when i could have it any time? Its less hard to confidently trust but we never know what could happen. But really, its just sitting there, waiting to happen. It doesnt matter what a person says, doesnt matter if they think they dont want something, deep down inside, we would have everything we wanted if we could. Lust is everyones sin, its an instinct of the human race.

Perception is the truth. It is all there is. In a war, your enemy is always the "evil" one. It doesnt matter if you think someone is "bad" and youre "good", in the end its all a perspective.

Just a young kid. Nothing made sense.

All blurry streaks i lived.

Why cant I relive them?

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Where did everyone go? What happened?

Why did you take away my only friend

Theres only one way out of this.

Your grip was so tight i died. Why didnt you just hold me gently like other parents did.

Why did you show me that it doesnt matter anymore but i feel sick about what you turned me into

It feels so painful not being able to feel anything anymore

It feels good to cry. It feels like my eyes burst open and started bleeding salt water.

Im going to try going to school, and if im still empty, i may as well fill myself. Its right there i need to hurry up and do it.

I dont even know what i feel every day. Its just empty. Ive gotten so used to this that it feels good.

Whenever we actually leave the house and do stuff, it doesnt feel like anything anymore.

Why cant i feel attraction to human beings

"Im sure it will come back eventually." -dad

I dont trust dad anymore. He lied.

He said that i would be allowed to draw and craft again tomorrow. THAT WAS OVER 6 FÙCKING MONTHS AGO LET IT GO

Its really all her fault. I tell her how im feeling and all of a sudden my soul gets ripped open.