rant below
by:
notyoursenpai 
539
539
03.04.2020
8 comments
notyoursenpai[OP]
03.04.2020 09:26
Linkim so ****ing done with life. this is such ****ing bullshit. i should just slice my own ****ing throat already i absolutely ****ing hate it so much. o do everything she ****ing asks. then she takes my ****ing phone. like what the ****. im talking to my friends. im actually socializing for once god dammit thats what you wanted. but no. i cant have any ****ig fun ever. i cant go to ****ing therapy. theyre the only ****ing people who motivate me to stay alive for ****s sake. i cant even im so pissed. you might think that its a stupid reason to act this way. the straw that broke the camel's back. this is the last ****ing straw. ill probably do it. if i do, you arent hearing shit from me. if i dont, yippee. im probably too much of a coward to do it though. i hate that about myself, along with every other ****ing thing.
notyoursenpai[OP]
03.04.2020 09:27
Linkim sorry but i had to rant. im so ****ing done.
notyoursenpai[OP]
03.04.2020 09:28
Linkand now i have no other way to talk to them. what the ****. im so pissed.
notyoursenpai[OP]
03.04.2020 09:35
Linkyou dont know how infuriating it is to get your ****ing lifeline cut off by some ****ing lady who doesnt get that you rely on them so much and then you cant even use what you used to be able to talk to them on your other device because the ****ing school changed it so you cant and now im so ****ing pissed that im probably going to do it. i really dont give a shit anymore. i have no one to talk to. ive been truly isolated. i cant do ****ing shit. i cant talk to my own ****ing friends just because its 2:30 in the morning. i ****ing hate it. i hate it all. im too ****ing depressed for this shit. you cant just do that. they were the only thing that were keeping me alive. i was having so much fun while talking to them. and i cant anymore. thats actually ****ed.
notyoursenpai[OP]
03.04.2020 09:38
Linkim sorry if you have to see this bullshit. you shouldnt have to. but this is literally the only place i can ****ing vent. and im probably going to have some ****o commenting something ****ing stupid. honestly, im bout to ****ing smash my head against the wall. how is that for "noise?" me choking on my own blood after my slit my throat> is that too noisy? maybe when i find all the ****ing cocaine i know you guys ****ing sell. maybe if I OD on all my meds. then there wont be so much ****ing noise, huh?
notyoursenpai[OP]
03.04.2020 09:41
Linkoh she would be so happy. not having to have to ****ing provide for some failure of a kid. then you wont have to pay for my meds anymore. thats great, right? you wont have to deal with me being "too quiet" or "always shut up in her room" because there will be no one to do it. then you can go on and live a happy life with your abusive boyfriend. ill see you in ****ing hell. wont even stop to say hi either.
notyoursenpai[OP]
03.04.2020 09:45
Linkjust some depressed kid. yeah. i am. and its a ****ing problem that only got better when i talked to people. i actually had fun. now ill probably wont be able to talk to them for ****ing months because of this ****ing lady who thinks that she decides everything in my life for me. i really dont give a shit anymore. if youre seeing this or whatever, comment whatever the **** youd like. i need the motivation for my ***** ass to actually do it. ****ING DO IT. im sorry that you have to see this, of course. if you have something to say like "nooo dont do ittt" just dont comment. thats not what i need right now. i need something to push me into actually doing it.
notyoursenpai[OP]
03.04.2020 09:47
Linkanyways, thats my little ****ing rant for the day. thanks for coming to my ****ing ted talk. hope you were entertained.