Talking bout need a woman that can kill me I just need to be killed 🙏

Tryina like yk not be sad all the time cause like ppl irl started asking if sumn was up like,, damn bro u care enough to ask even tho yall always just. Sit a little ways away from me and talk w eachother that's crazy Idk Just seems like all of my friends don't wanna be friends w me I know it's. Prolly just me overthinking but. The thoughts definitely there Don't even get me started on the fact that. Ion think anyone sees me as a guy. And the n just. I wont.ever be a guy Call it transph0bia or whatever but I will NEVER be an actual man. No matter the surgeries or T. The world will always view me as otherwise, and if someone says "oh but I see you as a man" they're lying.i know it. Uurgh atleast I can kinda do taxes