In my time of being alive, there's going to be people there to hold you down. To ram you till you bearly anything. Dust. Theres going to be ungreatful people who only steal and continue to do so. Who think its funny or cool when your fake. Theres going to be people who you think are keeping you alive and are making you happy, but in reality they are just soffacating you. I've atleast grown up and realized I was wrong in some cases. And others ik im wrong, but say im not cause the other person wouldn't ever grow up to say that they aren't the best person either. But other people? These other people have everything. They have help, friends who are there to tell them their okay. And yet they act like no ones there. If I could say one thing to most of these people who have done this, I wouldn't be able to pick one. Tho I would want to say, its quite sad, that someone younger than you can be more kind than you. Most of these people who have ruined me, their living happily. And hating my guts

But in all honesty. The best thing that happened to me after loosing one of these leeches, was how I realized that they were holding me back. And honestly, I hate them. So much. They ruined everything. Actually I use to not be so self conscious, I use to be more happy, use to trust easily. But I accept them in my life as something that made me grow. I just wish they didn't force that on me. Force all their thoughts on me only cause they had back up and I was so scared that id get attacked again. And those new found anxieties that came from this friend, that they always tried forcing me to fight alone. Are what made me worst, pretty jumpy, and easily agrovated. I found someone in less time that I known them who actually tries to understand me. I will get over my fears that they branded on me. Ill be able to make more friends, with out the fear of them secretly hating me, I will get out of the fear of myself, ill eventually actually love myself again. I realized, I dont have to fake happiness w

With them anymore. And thats something im trying to pull the curtains away for. They always made my fight or flight kick in. And relationships like that are hell So life lesson, actually listen to Jaden animations story on this matter. Cause if I did, I wouldn't have been forced to make a promise, I wouldn't have been forced to try and balance when they are going to be happy or agrovated.

This doesnt mean im going to stop trying to be there for every one of my friends. But yeh. Just know everyone always has a reason for things they do. Whether it be one easily identified, or something that was also drilled into em. Last night I was so close to just getting off the internet. I would have trashed my dreams cause of the after math of a relationship