So ive expreienced lots of things that have scarred me First off i cant even go to school without almost crying bc all the boys are sexualizing everyone and making fun of the LGBTQ+. Im sorry but i got sexualized and assuasted as a kid and its not funny at all. Plus getting called a fag almost everyday or having people say you being lesbian for attention.

Second, people making fun of suicide like its a joke. Its not a joke at all. Theres one girl at my lunch table who says stuff like "Suicide is pointless" "Its not gonna change anything" "you gonna die anyways it doesnt matter" and no its not pointless, yes it will change a lot and yes i know im gonna die later on in life but if i do commit then I can finally be free of problems!

Third, Febuary and March i cried almost every night and come to school looking like i got barely any sleep. (mostly because i didnt) so then id oversleep and miss the bus and have to call my parents and come up with a lie on why i overslept. And ive missed like 3-4 days of school because of crying. The having one of your "friends" tell you "Its in the past forget about it" "Shes alive, its ok just move on from it" OH IM SORRY THAT MY BEST FRIEND GOT IN A CAR CRASH! AND THAT SHE ALMOST DIED AND HAD TO BE SENT TO THE ER! I HAD TO TRY AND CALM HER DOWN THREW TEXTING WHILE SHES WAITING FOR AN AMBULANCE AND YOU WANT ME TO JUST FORGET ABOUT IT!?

Then waking up with bruises everywhere (mostly on my legs) and when I walk it hurts like hell. (sorry for swearing) During gym when i have to run it hurts so badly then having half the class (mostly boys) call you gay/fag for spending too much time or being too close to my crush (my crush is a girl) so thats great :D And my shoulders and chest hurt so badly rn that i cant explain the pain

you dont have to calm me down its ok

well mostly from running into things or just hitting my self

or from my brothers hitting me for no reason

mhm

i feel like crying bc i want to come out to my grandparents but im scared bc there religious

ok gotta go do chores brb