i try to be confident but people keep reminding me that im not flat stomached or hairless or acne free, i take care of my hair well because i feel like i have more control over it thank anything, especially more than my skin because i struggle with dermatillomania so bad people have to physically stop me from picking, theres permanent scars and never ending scabs on my legs, back, shoulders, and face, i feel gross everytime i see myself in the mirror and i draw myself pretty to feel better

it feels like the only people who think im pretty irl just want sex from me, and i give it because at least its something, sexual things have became a coping mechanism for me and i hate it and im trying to stop but its so hard when they say they love me

everyone brings up my age as a reason but ive been sexualized since i was 5, its hard to get out of something that gets molded into your mind at that age, i wish i was normal and pretty and that people loved me because they loved me and not because i whore myself out regardless of age

thank you its just hard to see it in myself

yeah i guess youre right, but if im not pretty and unique in a way others like then it doesnt really matter to them