Well, I'm not. I'm not living. Everyday is a new day where I try to be happy but I realize I can't but then I realize I was happy with you.

Everyday I have a mental breakdown. Everyday I'm stuck in the same loop telling myself things that aren't true. Maybe it's me Maybe it's my fault She doesn't love me Why?

I'm broken.

I'm not mad at you so it's okay to talk to me. Ive never been more hurt before in my life.

Will she ever find me? Or am I forever stuck in the dark abyss alone.

Maybe, she does not care to help. Maybe she does not care at all. and then one last word she would hear would be Help. And to know you dont come to their aid, you wont forgive yourself. Its an everlasting mark you made and you cant change it no matter how hard you try. Im not mad, I'm just hurt.

You never know what you have until it's gone. But this time they're gone forever. And youll never have them again. Someone to understand you, Someone to love you, Someone to take care of you the way you want to be taken care of. Someone to be there for you.