i need to love my wife hol up
by:
milknhxney 
157
157
21.05.2020
13 comments
milknhxney[OP]
21.05.2020 14:57
Linkboys, watch my six i need to give love
the boys: OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHHH what a lesbian
milknhxney[OP]
21.05.2020 15:00
Linklongass paragraph coming up
milknhxney[OP]
21.05.2020 15:03
Linkokay love, i know i suck at showing it but i love you more than anyone or anything I've loved before. i love you so much and i cant even put how much i love you into freaking words. i see how sweet you are and how smart you are and i get really jealous. jealous of how much people love and adore you. someone asked who my fa crush was and i said you and they said, "oh yeah they are really sweet i love em'" and i instantly got jealous and i had 2 sentence rant about how we were dating just so they would know.
you're so passionate and sweet and you care for others. i think its really cute when you get jealous and how much you care for me makes my heart nya. i know i am extra violent for no reason all the time, and i am a ***** to almost everyone and i am a horrible person but you put up with that and i wonder why. why would you waste your precious time on a edgy 14 year old freshman who is failing orchestra haha.
i wonder why you even chose me in the first place, considering so many people like you.
milknhxney[OP]
21.05.2020 15:06
Linkand yes, it makes me so incredibly jealous when you simply talk to other people, and sometimes i will see you make a post, saying something related to me or you, and I'll read it, start to comment telling you it would be alright, telling you that i love you, and then you delete the anim
i wonder why you do that, and i think its me. you don't want me to see it for some reason. and when i make a sad post or a vent post or whatever and you as me if im alight, i say im fine because i love you and i don't want you to worry..
ya know, I've never loved anyone like i love you, and for some reason, only with you,,this weird phenomenon happens. i hate myself, then you worry then i hate myself more for worrying you, and then you get sad, then that makes me hate myself for making you sad. and its just a neverending cycle because i love you
milknhxney[OP]
21.05.2020 15:07
Linkand im probably stupid for writing this but i want you to know that no matter what happens ill always love you because you..well you're perfect. you might say "oHOh nobody's perfect" but to me?? for me?? you are absolutely perfect and you cant change anything about you to change my mind.
because well i love you and it scares me to just think about what will happen if something goes horribly wrong :((
i don't want to lose you so i just keep trying to make you happy, so you don't go hahah
but moral of the story, love, is that i love you and i always well, no matter what happens. <333
milknhxney[OP]
21.05.2020 15:08
Link*insert hug*
holy smokes that's two paragraphs
i love you so, so much, but i can't describe it or put it into words-
i'm not as good a writer as you, but love, you're the passionate one- you actually talk to people, you make friends, you're so charming and something about you just makes me so, so happy. these sweet little notes you write, for instance? you have no idea how much i'm smiling right now. when you're being "extremely violent" (excuse me, i've literally sent someone to the emergency room?? how are you the violent one??? when i threaten people, i could actually do it, i could actually hurt them) it's for a reason and it's justifiable. you're not a *****, you're not horrible, you're- beyond words. you're my everything, and you still seem to love me although i'm rarely ever online and we barely get to talk.
and just so you know, any second spent not with you is a second wasted. and people rarely ever like me- i'm just convenient for them ^^
i love you most
and yeah that may be the difference. i can be violent, with like yelling and screaming at the top of my lungs, maybe throwing something, but i don't think i could actually f i g h t someone
and if you are just "convenient" for a person for otas and a random chat buddy
i might have to have a talk
i get really jealous and possessive when you talk to other people too (but when i do i just kind of yell at myself because you're not a prize for me to covet or for other people to steal- you're a real person)
when i make posts like that and delete them afterwards it's because i was being stupid and insecure & i didn't want you to see me being stupid and insecure and i didn't want you to worry but i guess we just end up worrying each other anyways, don't we? that cycle seems to be unavoidable when one of us is upset :((
you're not stupid for writing any of this, and yeah, i'm not perfect.(BUT YOU ARE!!)
i could tell you stories of things i've done (but i won't bc i don't want to lose you :)) )
honestly irl i act way grumpier most of the time- i'm a snarky, sarcastic asshole ^^ (unless i'm with my friends or my dad).
but i really really really really love you and ig that's what counts in the end, right?
my dad once told me he believed that if you truly love someone, than you always will, no matter what happens- whether one of you dies, you get divorced, whatever. that was his answer when i asked him why he never told off me mom for all the shit she's been giving him- taking him to court over pennies just to waste his time and his money.
so yeah, i guess what i'm saying is that no matter what, i will always love you.
yeah, i tend to scream at people a bit more than actually attack them (bc i live right next to the police station and i've already been suspected for a crime or whatever) ((however, i will add that at my school i'm infamous for my temper and yelling @ teachers :))) ))
and by "convenient," i meant that in a friend group, i'm typically the disposable friend. i'm there if you need someone to talk to or to do your math homework, but i won't be asked to hang out over the weekend- i've only a few true friends ^^ but that's okay, at least i know they're actually my friends
(might respond late, sorry