I WASNT BEING CHEATED ON SHE WAS CHEATING WITH ME WHY DOES THIS MAKE ME MORE MAD I RUINED SOMEONES LIFE IM HOMEWRECKER WTF MAN LIKE THIS COULDNT GET WORSE 🤯🤯🤯🤯 IT ALL MAKES SENSE NOW the only seeing me at night the playlists the photos the comments the seperate accounts she had me follow her side accounts bc i was on the side I was the other woman

her at night*

I CANT EVEN i cant evn get loved like I matter because I dont what the hell this felt like love i thought she loved me I dont know if I ever LOVE LOVEd her but i thought she loved me you know I thought this time it'd be different I thought this would be a two way street but no WE ARE AT A FOUR WAY CROSS SECTION ALL THE LIGHTS ARE GREEN AND I CANT DRIVE THIS STUPID HONDA ANYMORE I WANT TO CRASH I WANT TO GO HOME WHY CANT I BE LOVED ITS NOT ****ING FAIR I HATE HER I HATE HER SO MUCH I HATE ALL OF THEM LOOK WHAT THEY'VE DONE TO ME I USED TO BE KIND AND SWEET AND CAREFARE AND THE TRAUMA THEY INFLICTED ON ME HAS TURNED ME INTO A TERRIBLE PERSON MY ONLY PERSONALITY TRAITS ARE MENTAL ILLNESSESS AND COPING MECHANISIM THATS ALL I AM TO THESE PEOPLE IM A COPING MECHNISIM IM NOT A PERSON THE ALL AGREE THAT I AM FUNDMENTALLY DIFFERNT FROM THEM AND I DONT LIKE IT I DONT WANT TO BE DIFFERENT I WANT THAT LIFE I WANT THE STUPID MARRYING YOUR BEST FRIEND AND SOUL MATE AND LOVER ALL WRAPPPED IN ONE I WANT THE STUPID F

FAMILY I WANT THE STUPID CAR I WANT TO WATCH MY PEOPLE OUR PEOPL I WANT TO KNOW THE PERSON WHO TURNED MY KIDS INTO OUR KIDS YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN I WANT TO GO OUT ON SATURDAYS AND THEN WHINE ABOUT HOW TIRED I AM TO THE PERSON TANGLED NEXT TO ME IN PAJAMAS AND SHEETS I WANT TO BE HEALED I WANT TO BE OKAY AGAIN I WANT TO STRUGGLE I WANT TO HAVE A PRESSURE WASHER I WANT TO BE NORMAL I WANT TO KISS OSMEONE AND FEEL LIKE THEY THINK IM A PERSON I WANT TO BE SEEN AND HEARD AND LAUGHED WITH AND YEARNED FOR I WANT TO BE ABLE TO SAY HOW I FEEL WITHOUT FEAR OF LOOSING SOMEONE AGAIN I WANT THE STUPID ****ING CAMPING TRIPS I WANT TO HOLD HANDS WITH SOMEONE UNDER STUPID TABLE WITH RINGS WE GAVE EACH OTHER ON OUR WEDDING I WANT TO RAISE PUPPIES AND CATS AND NAME THEM AFTER OUR INTRESTS I WANT TO DECORATE A HOUSE FOR HALLOWEEN I WANT TO FEEL SAFE I WANT I WANT I WANT I NEED TO STOP CRYING WHEN SOMEONE RAISES THEIR VOICE I NEED TO OTHERS TO UNDERSTAND DISAGREEMENTS ARE OKAY I NEED SOMEONE WHO WONT LEAVE ME MENTALLY I DONT

CARE IF YOU LIVE ON THE MOON I WILL CRAWL TO YOU IF I HAVE TO WHY DONT PEOPLE SEE I LOVE THEM WITH EVERYTHING IVE GOT BECAUSE THERE IS NOTHING MORE I WANT TO DO WHY IS THAT WRONG WHY IS THAT SOMETHING PEOPLE WANT TO HURT WHY DON'T PEOPLE treat me like a person I dont get it, I've proven time and time again I breath and think and cry and laugh have bad hair and listen to stupid music IM REAL but people treat me like im expendible like replaceable because I'll never be enough aand I don't get why? why am I not enough for the anyone? let alone a lover jesus ****ing christ I thought I was supposed to be their number one but Im not Im no one to anybody I mean nothing of signifcance to anybody no one is going to remember my name when I disapear no one loves me no one cares what if im not real what if this is all fake and i havent woke up yet and it's still august and Im just trapped in a very vivid dream and thats why this feels so errie and cold and damp hard I dont want to fight anymore I dont want to survive a

anymore I dont want plant my feet in the ground and grow roots and then the rain comes just to blow me about i dont get it Im not a warrior I just want to be okay I need to be okay I dont know how much longer I can last like this

🤑🤑🤑🤑 disapearing