uhm.. I miss promagma

I was in the same kind of head space a year ago especially about the school work It got so bad I didn’t do any work when I came to school and stayed quiet the whole time I have to go and get my ged now since I’ve dropped out but I think working online is way healthier for me When I have something I need to do- I tell myself to atleast TRY and do it and not tell myself I can’t I have to watch dishes everyday- and that can seem like a easy task for some but for others who have problems with motivation or depression doing the simplest things can get hard But I tell myself I won’t know if I can’t do it if I don’t try And then before I know it most of the dishes are done and I’m fine

It’s really easy to get into a muck and tell yourself your all these horrible things when your not Last night you listened to me when I was droning on about my own things ( even though the site crashed minutes later ) your a good person

Even if you didn’t respond your still a person with your own feelings and stuff to go through It’s easy to see other people doing work and tell yourself your the exception and your wrong but you don’t know what those other people have been through compared to you- those people don’t have the thoughts and issues you have and it’s not rational to compare yourself to anyone

If your dad is such a shitty person to talk down on there own kid why would you agree and listen to him- why take the advice of someone who clearly isn’t sound of mind and a horrible person themselves

My friend has the opinion he wouldn’t want to hang around others who do drugs because it turns them into different people and could drag him down, I find comfort in people who do drugs they’ve been around me all my life and they have been through some of the same shit I have- everyone doing drugs has there own problems going on and that’s what makes them so endearing to be around- because you don’t feel alone in your problems then I don’t do drugs but I’ll always support and help other people who do them-

I won’t give you a list of solutions and try to just solve the problem like I always do- since my sister told me that she sometimes just needs someone to listen and it doesn’t feel like she’s being heard when I tell her those things

But I’ll be here to talk to you for right now

It’s no problem, but since you drink do you get hangovers?

Is it legal to drink at 18 where you are? If not how do you get the booze

My sister also had problems drinking, she actually poured water and food coloring in a bottle after she drunk all the stuff

When I get older I don’t think I will make it into college, the work would be way to much for me but I want to find a job in daycare or taking care of animals I decided art should just be a thing I do as a hobby and not for money

Since your 18 now what do you plan to do? As in work and living situation

I think that everyone deserves someone else in there lives, even the most introverted of people Someone else to keep them going and to plan a future with- that could be family and partner or a friend If I had to live in a rubbish apartment I would- having any type of place is almost like a achievement to me

My friend gets depressed and her room gets dirty sometimes, she tries to clean it when I come over but her sister just makes it worse But I ended up deep cleaning her room at our weekend sleepover

I told her if she ever needed somewhere else to go she could always call me and I’d get her She has a shitty dad too

If you lived somewhere near me I’d honestly probably reach out and talk to you You don’t see it but I see a life ahead of you

Probably go on walks while you smoke and have pointless convos That’s what me and my sister do because she hates being in the house sm

Goodnight dude, when you wake up in the morning try and recover and recuperate alright