Bro oh my ****ing God, whats the point of not telling me things sooner if you're gonna be uncomfortable in that situation bro 🤦‍♂️🤦‍♂️🤦‍♂️🤦‍♂️🤦‍♂️

Seriously I'm with this shit 24/7

I remember one time I ask them the same question two times and they just left me on read, next day you know when I talked to them in personal, they said they were "uncomfortable" 🤦‍

It's literally their fault for not clarifying themselves SOONER

Because they could've just answer and came in saying hey I'm not comfortable with this question when I ask them one

Not only it makes me look like a horrible person but it manipulates the situation to me making it my fault

Dont get me started on the fact they can't even communicate clearly, I know I'm self aware that I communicate shit but I at least try to become clear

This is what I have to ****ing go through this whole year bro

I've been pointed fingers by them with the worst case scenario

I made a promise to them that they're gonna get a bunch of friends at the end of the school year but realistically they think I'm talking shit about them

And that pisses me off like, not only I did it because I like them, I did it because I'm their friend. I literally saw them being sooooo ****ing lonely 24/7, and I felt sorry for them so I decided to give them a bunch of friends bc that's what they WANTED

I do things just to make them happy, I do it for everyone, I even go far beyond and make a fool of myself for them. But I'm so sick and tired of this shit where they're telling me stop apologizing, I'm only apologizing because I saw what I did was wrong. I remember the first time I actually stop caring about them, I made them a ****ing fool in public because they kept pushing my buttons by just calling me names.

Most of the times they're jokes but sometimes they're serious, they always call me an asshole and I don't know what Im doing is wrong, THEY DON'T CLARIFY IT

They don't criticize of my flaws. If people that are your friends and they don't criticize the single thing about you then they're just people pleader.

Pleaser*

Being criticising by your closest friends has to be one of the most hurtful things from them but deep down they still care about you and pointing about the bad habits around you.

Seriously though I want to stop everything dude, I hate it, I HATE it so so much

So many ****ing miscommunication, this ruined my ****ing school year

Logically I want to stop but deep down in my heart I can't because that's a human being that I deeply care about bro

Anyways M is for

They're acting like they understand me after all the things I've went through them but stil say I'm too complex blud ✌😂😂😂😂😂

Till this day they still don't understand how I feel

They don't even know how to start a convo

Through this whole year I've been the one carrying them bro