I'm just thinking what has happened this few weeks and its making me feel worse

i wanna talk about it, ill try but its hard to not think about it

so i started homeschooling a while ago and my nana, 'helps' us do our work, what i mean by 'help' i mean she just yells at us, and when my thoughts are foggy she just constantly sighs and makes mean comments, it makes me feel worse because it makes me feel like its my fault (she takes anything we have to focus and says "you dont need that to play with while you're doing your work" i cant tell her because she will just yell) I've been struggling with (possibly) depression (i have not found anything that helps me find out if i do in fact have depression because my mom thinks its normal to be sad and just tells me off any time i ask for like any type of tharpy wich makes it worse) soo thats most of it

also after almost a year of barly talking i try to have fun with her while playing labyrinth and i just get my arm almost dislocated and just a ear full of "dont be lazy"