No

****ing no

Oh my god i hope you havent done it

I am shaking

Im ****ing about to cry please dont have done it

I wasn't even there

I will never be able to save you from your self hatred

Did you seriously do it?

Am I alone now? Yeah i am alone now Im all ****ing alone again just like last time I thought you would stay with me and try to get help I thought you were going to try making things better and actually succeed I was so certain But you ****ing gave in I can't do this shit anymore why did you do it I am so frustrated because if only I could have gone to you and physically stopped you from doing something to yourself but i ****ing couldnt do anything i never can how can i not take care of the person that i love more than my own life and now that that person is gone i have nobody why does life have to be such shit why did we have to have a physical barrier between us i am hoping that you didnt do it but i feel like you did i loved you so much why did you do this to me i wanted to make things better for you but my dumb ass couldnt like always i am nothing. Your existence in my life has saved me from committing all the way but now i think i might just snap i want to be with you i just want my chest to stop h