not just this week either. maybe like. last week too. and the week before..ive been thinking about it more seriously recently.. like man before i would say boi if i do what if something changes later and i regret it or somethign! ill enevr see the light of day if i just suicide myself right 😅 well MAN ive been tellign myself this for many years and i still do not have anyone to physically talk to. also i think my relationship with my family feels a lot worse too. maybe its because im such an asshole i should stop being such a dick

boy it kinda feels likedog fart going outside and seieng people your age have fun hang out with friends and like. do things. meanwhile im just doing nothing man. i feel jealous of those people!

*sighs* but maybe i wont kill myself because if i do my kurofai plushies will have noone to take care of them..

ok and i feel even more bad for saying all this bruh because i do have people i can talk to..like i can text them and stuff..but man i fele like im going crazy dude wheneer i open my mouth its like i dont know how my voic eis gonna sound cuz of how little i talk