wow my mental health is like ****in gO ne

like whered it go

***** took my happiness on the way out too like mcscuse me *****??

i really just kinda wish i was dead like all the time people would be so much better off they wouldnt have to deal with me anymore they wouldnt even care if i was gone no one would actually miss me id be better off too ngl like i have these two friends that are dating and one of them, he always tells me that he loves and cares about all of his friends equally but its really ****ing obvious that he favors his bf over everyone like i was sitting next to him in math class i mention that i felt shitty and wanted to just like ****ing die and he doesnt say shit about it so i post a vent about it on a different site and all he does is comment memey shit like its so ****ing obvious that you're not even trying and then his boyfriend walks in at the end of class and says he's tired because he just came from gym class and my friend instantly goes up to him, asks if hes okay, and hugs him

like??? okay what the **** am i to you youre one of the only people ive ever genuinely cared about and youre out here doing this bullshit even when you say that everyone matters to you equally it pisses me off so ****ing bad

like they just really hate me that ****ing much

everyone literally just ****ing gave up on trying to keep me going and help me through all of this shit. nobody ****ing tries anymore. they all just keep lying to make me feel better. no one means it when they say i matter to them. they wouldnt care, let alone notice, if i vanished into thin air. no matter how much they try to tell me, i know that deep down they really dont give a shit anymore. i care and worry about them so much every day. i hope theyre all doing alright and theyre happy. but theyve never felt the same about me. they just ****ing pushed me out of their lives like i was just some toy they could mess around with

i just wanna feel loved