nobody is perfect and there's nothing wrong with that huh ironic, but stop being so negative about yourself, please and please be ok, i can't assure you everything's gonna be fine since i don't know what's going on and you decide that.

but... i want you to be happy ngl this sounds weird but uhm yeah, i don't wanna see sad people, but i won't f*ck off

Fine you may not be perfect, Nobody is, But no one should ever have to feel horrible like this, everyone deserves happiness and joy. You are one of the small handfull of kind / people I actually enjoy talking to and having them in a small amount of my life. That says a lot as I've had some family troubles and I've come to distant some to many family members. I cant look at my mom with my own heart to say I see her as I did when I was 4. You in my eyes, are a wonderful person. To me you are, Kind, Caring, Honest, Real, And an actually human. I cant bear see you sad. I actually hurts me, I do care about you and your feelings. I never intend to hurt you. So if you may not think you are perfect, then I guess you arent. But you'll always be one out of a small handfull of people i enjoy having in my life.