listen...
by:
TheDarkAnimat 
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26.04.2018
87 comments
IDontEvenKnow
26.04.2018 02:14
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im..
really hurtng right now..
my best friends are ignoring the shit out of me...im surrounded by so many girls that are 'pretty'..and guys that act like the king....
im being ignored my friends..
my mom isnt supporting me...
i feel so sad..
i feel like a disopointment to my girlfriend becuase i cant be ther efor her in person..
i feel like i let her and everyone down...
im stressed about grades..
so
i read and come on here
i read fairytails...
i draw on here..
i just...
need support..
i WANT support..
i want my girlfreind to hang out with me a bit more..i know im acting like a selfish whiney *****ey baby...but..
..
im sorry..
im just..
hurting a little...
i feel li ke shes flirting with everyone...
i fell like she wants to leave me...
i feel like i should leave this site..
i...
i know im being *****u but...
my hearts been hurt by people saying things liek:
' oh i was just joking! i didnt mean it when i was fake flirting' or 'dont worrie, i love you!'
and..
it all
be
a
lie...
thats why..
im a little heartbroken...
i..
i know im a ***** and im being selfish....
please..
dont be mad...
i know but..
it hurts..
when she flirts with others..
and i afraid when she says"its just an AU'
its really her just..showing how much she wants to leave..
im..
just hurting..
alot
and im scared from things that have happende like this in the past...
im sorry im a *****
no your not if you feel like that tell her..or If you think she wants to lave you eh...-hug- t's okay to be hurt..
i..
i dont want her to think im clingy..
i know shes gonna see this
and..
a little part of me hopes she dose.
so she knows..
i know her life at home is bad and yet i still say these tings..
corey..if you read this.
please..
im sorry...
i just..im hurting too..
im a monster i shouldnt put more pressure on her..dam it
im a monster...
i shoudlnt put my problems on you guys...
im terrible im so sorry you guys...
i shoudl just..hide it like i have been
i want corey to know how i feel..
but
i also dont...
i feel like trash im a monster
you all have your own problems..and yet...
i still made this...
i cant...
it..
doesnt feel right..
i used to be able to talk to people and not feel bad..
but..
then
my ex..snapped and started yelling at me one times and she cut the side of my wrist because i was being a 'self centered little *****'
...
thats why im afraid of telling people the stress in my life...
...
i cant..
im sorry...
i..
ill just sound more whiney and like a *****...
..
i..
i never told corey about kimber (the ex) and what she did...
i feel like shit everytime i look at the scar....
for some reason..
i want corey to see this..
so she knows why..
why..
...
why i get so sad...when she flirts with others...even if it really IS for an AU!!
i just..
iv been cheated on..
hurt..
lied too..
im just
afraid of it happening again...
-hugz- A.S.H.L.E.Y ...y-you can tell corey....im here though..im Going to always suport you..
i...
shes on a private thing rn
and..
im too nice to go and snoop on it..
so..
she wont see this for a bit....
.....talk...please ashley...even if your not mine i still care for u ><
i know you do..
but
....
i feel like im gonna hurl when ever i talk to someone...
ye...
....
oh god...
if corey sees this..
i hope shes not mad...
i doubt..
shell ever see this...
i really dont think she will....
i did it..
i went to waht she was on..
sent it and left as fast as i came becaus eim too nice to snoop
now i regret it
shes gonna be mad i was on her private chat...
i didnt mean anything but to let her know...
im so sorry..
im a monster...
even tho i didnt read anything
she still might be mad...
maybe...
i dont know if she'll be mad...
no..
i dont..
i just..
hope IF she even comes here from what i posted..
shes not mad...
i hope she doesnt think anyless of me now..
listen, im just..
really stressed
im sorry
dont be mad
dont hurt yourself
do hate me
i was just..
scared..
the scar on my hand brought back the thoughts..
im sorry cotton...
it..rally isnt..
i need to be more open..but ****ing what kimber did made it really hard..
i should have told you waht she did..
i should have told you sooner how..
how much i needed to be fixed..
i..
i geuss i didnt know how much i needed ot be fixed untill now...
im sorry cotton...
i didnt mean anything....
i was..
scared..
the scar on my hand...
made me scared of losing you...
im sorry
i really am!
its not you
its school
its people
please
cotton
i just needed you to know what happened
im sorry..
i just thought..
if i listened to you..
you would listen to me...
maybe understand how i was hurting...
how much i need to hug you..
to be with you..
how scared i am...
i felt..
if you dont like me now..
...
i wont blame you
please..
im crying...
im scared..
i really am..
im shaking...
i..
im sorry..
i wanna throw up...
i want you to forgive me....
cotton...
plese..
forgive me
even when i get like this..
just know..
im never mad or dissapointed at you..
im just hurting
i cant tell my dad
my mom doesnt want me to be myself
i love you..
and....
im sorry i didnt tell you sooner..
thank you..for..not being mad at me for feeling things because of the pass
thank you..
and please...
ill be norrmal now..
i jsut needed to vent..
you need to vent at times too..
i just..
thought
youd understand
and im really hoping your not lieing when you day you do...
you dont sound like it..
but..
itrust you!
i really do!
but you cant be butt hurt about this...please?
it was just a vent
you vent too..
this will be the last vent for a bit, i promis.
i trust you with all my heart i swear!!
i know you would never cheat!
i really do!
your loyal and kind!
sweet and pationt
you HAVE to understand things just got to my head..
things can get to your head and others heads too
please
understand
that i love oyu and trust you COMPLETLY
COM
PLETLY
my head just for clouded
here it is....
its a bit harsh
you said you were happy....
well.....
not for long....
my bad...