Basically I was doing the event about my family which is driving me towards wanting to kill myself but personally I don’t want to die deep down and leave all of u guys depressed about me,so I’ll keep on living but just know that I still want to die but I won’t do it,something is telling me not to deep down, The problem with my family is that they aren’t even my real family,appreanlty i never met my family,my sister went missing and they hid everything and now I don’t know who I came from,heck my family treats me like crap and act normal around others,I never tell them anything cause I lost my best freind because of them and even more friends,they didn’t care when somebody almost kidnapped me(we’ll prob because I didn’t tell them) and recently they said something like,join us when ur ready to actually be a part of this family,I said to myself “never” in my head because I ignore them a lot but I don’t know why I just somewhat feel like deep down in my cracked cold dark heart I love th