lifes so complicate rn and i got so many issues hitting me at once, first relationship goes on for so long and we dont talk for a couple month i begin to think she left me so i move on then this other girl uses me and dates like 15 other dudes then i leave her this other girl dates me then leaves within a week for a guy she knew just 2 day longer then me and then i get with someone that said they didnt have feelings for me then we break up then...(getting tired of saying then) i get with someone ese but i am having doubts a bit and then my first gf comes out of nowhere and turns out we where together the entire time and now i feel extremely guilty for dating other people and now im with two people at the same time and im so confused on what my life is anymore...i dont feel safe...and i know i sinned and i feel awful about it, i didnt realize i was doing bad until now and i want to die.....most of you might call me a cheater and hate for this...if you do i dont blame you...either way im nothing but a useless