Ouo Thanks...

Mainly just small things that affect me a lot... Having the friend I was closest to move to a new school (even though it'll make things better for them), having a stutter, not being able to speak my mind, unsure of what I am (in many ways), me and my sibling being so similar but our parents telling other people only certain things about us, friends making me feel more invisible every time I see them, all the times I've slipped in and out of depression and NO. ONE. has noticed (except for Jacob, the friend that's moved away), the only people I trust moving away-losing contact- or being animals, people only seeing certain sides of me, thinking I'm either shy or mean, quiet or crazy, not being able to make a point when I want/need to and... yeah. Things like that.

Don't you flipping make me cry... QwQ I'm an emotional person heh... Thank you so much... I try not to make vents or complain to people mostly because I, myself, have grown into thinking of myself as the mother of the group (which... I am tbh), the strong one and my friends think of me that way alot. I'm seriously hoping that I'm able to get my confidence back. Ever since I joined secondary school my confidence has slowly gone down and I've despised (strong word, I know) many more people than I would have liked. Lots of the things I want to do when I'm older involve interactions or talking but due to the people I've been around over the years I've started to inch away from talking to people even though, on the inside, I'm a very social person who would want more than anything to contribute my ideas to a group conversations I may not even be in/know but because everything I've said before, I can't really do that. Sorry, I don't mean to rant XD Most of this may not make sense anyways.

I'm not super depressed at the moment. It sort of disappears for different amounts of time and then comes back out in short bursts of sadness and anger. I try my best to make it not affect my work/friendships.