how do you deal with someone coded as normal in your head something that you can hardly explain why it happens.. im scared. i don't know why. something just tells me to be unable to do anything. something just decides to make me feel so helpless im scared to do anything because you're just going to ****ing make some remark i dont want summer i dont want people i just want to be alone i dont want you to ask me why because frankly, i don't know why i dont know why im like this