I don't know, I just spent thethe last two hours lying in bed with my eyes closedclosed.

I spent today checking through all my clothes individually, threw away about 80%, then I almost fell asleep, at 8PM. Then I tried to stay up to speak to you. At about ten you told me to go to sleep. Then I spent two hours trying, I got all depressed and ****ed up because for some reason I'm still awake. This has been a ****ing awful night.

I just want to do something to take my mind off it, but there's nothing to do and I'm so ****ed up I can't do shit anyway.