how the hell can a person go from being near giving life and everything up to being completely happy in like 5 or 10 minutes? or, it's from ****ing absolute happiness or something to "I WANT TO ****ING MURDER EVERYONE!" if im not feeling suicidal as ****, or happy and upbeat as hell then i'm feeling absolutely nothing and feeling empty ****ing sucks.. in certain situations, it makes me feel like a monster yet in some situations when im really ****ing negative, i have the urge to feel nothing and honestly its killing me one day i'll be like: "I'm gonna quit. I have no motivation. blah blah blah." the next day or sometime later, "I feel absolutely fine!" it makes me feel like a ****ing liar..