I really want to buy cothes I actually like but I dont know what I like and I still want to look "good" but idk how to put together outfits in my head or how people get ideas to try certain stuff together

all Ive ever known is jeans and t shirt and I will cry behing a clothing rack at the mall

I honestly hate my clothes and how I dress but I genuinely have such a huge fear of trying anything different and its such a big problem and I feel like shit all the time

plus Im broke so even if these major problems werent a thing I still wouldnt be able to do anything about it now

and I only go shopping wih family so I buy the most bland shit so they say nothing about it cause I hate just even talking to them, I cant stand when they give me their opinions on my shit. I just ****ing hate them so ****ing much I cant shop with them. if its a good opinion ots fake or for the wrong reasons and if its a bad opinion I just want them to stop talking immediately and I want to scrape out their vocal cords with a fork. Im so angry and sad at all times why am I such a teenager

hhahshshahhahaha wish I didnt have anxiety lolol wish I didnt ha e immense body issues lmao wish I didnt feel like such an incompetent child that has no idea how to act hehehhe

man Im not okay rn sorry