That moment when your family thinks your asleep but your just being quiet because you didnt wanna wake anyone up but then hear them talk about you weight and you already insucrue about it so you just feel really ugly and gross and think maybe I should just go numb and never feel any emotion and let all my hate build up leading to my death or maybe I should just stop living and I wont have to deal with this bullshit even though everyone is gonna say you just wanted to take the fast and easy way out