god i hate my parents so much i always feel unwelcome in my own household and they expect me to be a perfect little social butterfly i am pretty social but im only social when i am far away from them they always manipulate me into thinking im wrong i told the principal at my school and he said that if it got worse in the next couple of weeks then they'll call DHS they called my parents and told them about everything and once i got home, they were trying to make me feel guilty i am so ****ing sick and tired of living in this hell i have considered MANY times of running away or even killing myself i am expected to be perfect when i am not perfect, they yell at me or even beat me i am trying so hard to resist the urge to get a knife i am sick and tired of feeling like this i just want my parents to ****ing stop making me feel like shit my parents are gaslighting me and i am so sick and tired of it EVERY TIME i have a mental breakdown and my parents catch me, they beat me

I feel as if i am not welcome I feel as if i am not wanted I feel as if i am not loved I feel as if I should be dead according to my parents, i should be gaslighted according to my parents, I should be abused according to my parents, i should be yelled at according to my parents, i should be dead and always emotionally hurting

I'm just a liar I'm just a screw up I'm worthless I'm invalid I deserve a slow and painful death.

Now if you'll excuse me, I'm going to cry into my pillow while listening to depressing music