why do you love me i dont understand. maybe i will never understand

i dont know why people care about me genuinely. why. why do you care. i do not matter

arent you getting tired of me yet? isnt this annoying? i can never keep myself together. surely this is bothering you?

is this how everyone else feels? am i alone? why am i so sad? why does my dad hate me? why does my step mother hate me? why do i even try anymore?? because of them. they are the reason

they are the reason i am trying and trying

i will keep trying for as long as i can

ive come to realise i am the terrible kid. even though my father hurt me. he was just teaching me. and i took that all for granted. but i am scared of him. i cannot step out of line. i must be the perfect girl for him. i will not make a mistake. someday maybe i will be perfect

please do not hurt me. i am being as perfect as i can. i will be everything you wanted

do not slip up. do not slip up. do not slip up. you need to be perfect. if you make a mistake he will scream. he will scream at your face. he will scream until he gets it through your head. until you remember that for the rest of your life

maybe he is not becoming a better person but rather i am! maybe im finally beginning to learn and be perfect! maybe im almost there! thats why he hasn't screamed for a while! maybe im almost perfect

get it through your head. get it through your head get it through your head get it through your head get it through your head

please stop drinking father. i am scared. please stop. i am scared when you are drunk.

please do not hurt me. i will be perfect i promise i will be please dont hurt me