No I’m not,,,maybe I am idk maybe

I miss hanzzzzzz waaa I’m so I can’t I’m going crazee What do I need More sleep? Noooo that can’t be it Nnnn my headddd okokokokokokokok…. What Am I doing

What was I supposed to be doing Drawing Or

Oh yeah,,that’s right. It’s hard not to..uhm It’s hard to not talk to people about what I’m writing about What can I do to ignore the validation I crave Is there anything I can really do? Maybe practice rejection or well I’ve gotten okay with that now Maybe being happy with who I’m surrounded by I’m grateful for sure but I thought it was natural to want a lil more than two or three friends at a time Maybe I’m asking too much

I need my head to be less crowded I really want to work on this comic but if it doesn’t receive immediate attention or a strong response I know I’ll ****in lose it But. It will pass. And I’ll be okay in the end. It’ll probably make me too upset to work on the second part But I’ll get past it And keep working on it I’m I tell myself that a lot- that it’ll pass. That the pain is temporary But I’ll always be stuck at where I am I want more of a push

I want someone to make a connection with I want a group of people to have a strong connection with me and we all push each other to do our best I know it’s not easy I know it is And I’m trying I really am I want someone to give me a chance I really hope that’s what I need to stop this ache in my heart

I really hope I can get it soon Something like that at least A good support system so I don’t have to lean on him all the time and think about suicide everyday It wouldn’t be a cure all so I can’t expect that But it’d be amazing just to have more people like him around me so I’d catch a break from all these thoughts