OkAy, so last year I met a guy I really liked on Minecraft (no judge, I was dUmB) and I called him Cris, we started dating about a few months after meeting and he made me feel so nice, I was always happy when I saw him. But months and months later I started to think he was cheating, so every night I'd cry myself to sleep to the point that I wanted to end my life from the pain I felt. A few months past and we shared what we looked like irl and I know that personality counts but I guess looks somewhat count- so I tried not to think of what he looked like and just played with him for a while. He introduced me to his friends and I honestly thought he was cheating on me with one f his friends. The depression came back to me and I cried a lot. Ofc I hid my depression and make dark-humored and kinda dirty jokes with him and I thought everything was good. Though one day my sis found out about my bf and asked to see what he looked like, I showed her a picture of him and she laughed a lot, I got offended.. (continues)

but the more I looked at his picture the more I grew further apart from him. My sister convinced me to break up with him because it wasn't worth it so I did. After I did he wouldn't stop acting depressed and changed all of his PFPS to depressed Bart (which kinda got me annoyed) And whenever I tried talking to him he'd say "hey..." It annoyed me, a l o t. Months after the break up we became friends and talked a lot, I thought he was a good person but then.. he started making very VERY edgy jokes.. like he would make fun of kids with cancer and saying he was a terrorist. Now I did NOT put up with that, Like how DARE he make fun of those poor kids. I got mad at him (like hella mad) and soon blocked him and his friends. good thing I did because not even a day later he sent h*ntai to a group chat I was in- so uh, W e l l. But that was about a month ago and I learned to be a better person and not make super edgy jokes like that and started to animate on my yt channel. And that's why I was gone for awhile!

well this post was a waste of time lmao