i also left my antidepressants at his house because i slept over there the night before i went back to ireland

it djdnt make any difference at all i dont think they were helping i feel completely empty snd void of any feelings except for laying in bed at nighr and longing for what once was

what once was as in any time before december last year because i ahve not felt genuine emotion since then

i hate my mum i hate my mum so much im so glad shes dead but i wonder what couldve been if she was ever a decent person i wonder what my life would be like if my mum wasnt my mum shes the worst person ive ever met everyday ithink about her and i really wonder what my life wouldve been like without her

it woukdve been so good i hate her i hate her so much i hate my mum oh my god im so similar to her its why i hate myself oh my god i want to ****ing stab mtself in the chest repeatedly i am exactly like her im so ****ing rude and then wonder why no one likes me like its vecause im a horrible person obviously 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂i am the absolute worst person to hang out eith or be aroufn oh my god

imagine only being able to see the person you absolutely ****ing hate most in yourself like yup!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!sure am her child!!!!!!!!!!🤩🤩🤩same smile same eyes same hair texture same awful ****ing personality and just a general disregard for anyone besides myself im so selfish i ****ing hate myself i never genuinely understood why im miserable but now i get it

no way a lighthearted post about how my boyfriend lives in utah and i am ****ing irish turn into s vent about my mum oh ym god she gets in the way of everything even when shes dead!!!!!!!! not ****ing surprised im the same

man i really be like “i wish i people woild care about or even remotley tolerate me” and then just be an awful person i want to kms but whoooo couldnt even do that right amirite guys i failed four times you got that right four seperate times this ugly **** somehow messed up killinf himself wow chauncey great jkb great job **** i couldnt even do that right