I'm not okay. (vnt)
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drawprololo 
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19.10.2024
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drawprololo[OP]
19.10.2024 14:50
Linkhello, I know it's been a long time but I needed to express myself about this, I was groomed in 2022 by someone who claimed to be my friend, made "humor" forcing me to send my body and to make nsfw of him and my oc (it was not my sona but it remains problematic I WAS ****ING 12)
drawprololo[OP]
19.10.2024 14:52
LinkI wasn't old enough to have networks and it's partly my fault but I was already being harassed irl and I wasn't mentally stable at that time so I took refuge on the internet
drawprololo[OP]
19.10.2024 14:54
LinkI still feel bad about it, I'm trying to heal but I keep fantasizing about it even though I know it's not normal, I had a lot of trauma in my childhood in this kind of context so I couldn't protect myself properly
recently in 2024 I tried to talk again to this person, explaining my discomfort but he takes me for an idiot (know that this person is currently 17 and I am 13 💀) he says things like "I feel lonely right now" "I want you to be my friend again" "friendship has no age" but I have the impression that he is forcing me to be his friend to cover up these old bad actions but I had no intention of reporting him, I want to but I am afraid.
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my groomer apologized but i'm sure it was fake because he insists that i absolutely have to forgive him
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Don’t forgive him at all, you don’t have to forgive him for shit for having you go thru that
And the fantasizing is possibly hypersexuality. It can cause unwanted thoughts of sexual experiences and is caused through trauma of sexual abuse and is a trauma response the brain has
yes, I really don't want to self-diagnose but it may be possible (I will soon talk to professionals about it because I have already talked to some people in my family)