yes, I really don't want to self-diagnose but it may be possible (I will soon talk to professionals about it because I have already talked to some people in my family)

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my groomer apologized but i'm sure it was fake because he insists that i absolutely have to forgive him

recently in 2024 I tried to talk again to this person, explaining my discomfort but he takes me for an idiot (know that this person is currently 17 and I am 13 💀) he says things like "I feel lonely right now" "I want you to be my friend again" "friendship has no age" but I have the impression that he is forcing me to be his friend to cover up these old bad actions but I had no intention of reporting him, I want to but I am afraid.

I still feel bad about it, I'm trying to heal but I keep fantasizing about it even though I know it's not normal, I had a lot of trauma in my childhood in this kind of context so I couldn't protect myself properly