today he asked me if i was mad at him and i said no even though i want him out of my life. He seems to forget things a lot because when he tells me something and i say he has told me it before hes likd "oh i have?"

"are you mad at me?" No totally not after i yelled at you in the hallway 2 weeks ago about being disgusting

i thought he was actually a good person, someone i could trust, unlike every other stupid cisgender boy at my school. nope he just like everyone else. I miss my friend rocky so much i want to cry he was the reason i went to school but this new school confuses me and scares me and everything is so different it doesnt seem real. I dont know what is real anymore but ive just learned to accept that maybe none of this is real. I used to care but im not even scared of not being real or if im just living someone elses life or if the choices i make are my own