Mother: well why not? You're family is gonna be there.

Me: ... I'm too tired..

Mother: Okay, whatever

"I'm tired" "I'm just tired.." "That's too tiring.." "Eh, I did sleep..I must've just woke up too early.."

I'm not tired okay.. IM SICK, SICK OF BEING USED TOSSED AWAY FORGOTTEN NOTHING SHIT JUST A FRIEND HELPLESS A WEIGHT-BEARER A ATTENTION SEEKER SOMEONE WHO CARES A LITTLE TOO MUCH

I'm..I'm sick of being "fine" ..or.. "okay".. MY WHOLE LIFE IS FAKE NOTHING IS REAL WHAT IS MY WORTH!? WHY. DO. YOU. CARE. IM JUST THE FATE'S PLAY TOY IM STUPIDLY BLINDSIDED

Why. Do. You. Follow. Me. And. Act. Like. You. Care. When. I. Can. See. Right. Through. your. Little. Act.