ik that its hard to just sit there and watch him like this feeling like you can't do anything and that your just a waste of space but all you can do right now is spend as much time with him as possible and ik that it might be hard to look at him but just talk to him tell him how your day went and stuff all you can do rn is love him and pray that he gets better... we all go through shit in out lives and sadly yes its just part of life when we get rlly sick when we are older but ik how you feel trust me i had to sit there and watch my grandpa take his last breath im not trying to vent all im saying is i get how you feel and if you ever need to talk im here no matter what

sometimes we make promises we can't always keep but just know that hes a fighter and he will fight as hard as he can for you no matter what and if you don't have friends irl then they just arn't good enough for you. if you stepmother gets mad tell her that you just don't trust her yet and you want to build ur bond with her before you tell her things i bet she will understand that

ofc anytime!