it just makes me overthink about everything instead of actually enjoying the media im obsessing over

i also feel like im losing my sense of self when this happens, especially now that its with a character i see myself in

this is so stupid dude its just some series on youtube why does it matter to me so much

shes just some fictional character that will never exist anyways so why do i want to be her so badly if thats not gonna get me anywhere

the more i think about this the more ANGRY i feel with myself because why cant i just be normal??

everything is horrible and stupid and why is the only thing keeping me going right now a tv show and what am i supposed to do when it ends in a few months and why do my interests fluctuate so much

why am i so obsessed over some fictional character and why am i only happy because of some stupid ship why does it matter to me so much why is there nothing else thats actually IMPORTANT for me to care about

of COURSE i couldn't have been born a normal ****ing person im all weird and annoying and ****ed up in the head oh my god this is so corny