i always hate mine if that make you feel a little bit better

i just try to sing more clearly and with more emotion and it doesnt still really satisfy me but im like "oh yeah all of the singers i stan got lots of hours of practice i just need to find a better way to sing"

You're not the only one bud, we don't get to decide how we look, act, and sound. If we did most of us would be the same. I'm sure your voice will change as you grow and I hope you get more comfortable with how you sound over time.