im done venting for tonight
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babydolljax 
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16.04.2021
15 comments
WEARWOLF3
16.04.2021 02:20
LinkHey hey shhh. Its ok. Talk to me bun bun whats wrong??
WEARWOLF3
16.04.2021 02:22
LinkBunni please talk to me!! Im worried!!
babydolljax[OP]
16.04.2021 02:23
Linkno, no im scared
im scared of venting
im scared it will get annoying and people will leave me
and i've already dumped a shit ton of venting on you
i don't want you to feel like a burden or feel like you HAVE to help me
because you don't
and i just want you to be happy
WEARWOLF3
16.04.2021 02:24
LinkIts not me having to!! Its me wanting to!! And if youre sad then you should talk to someone!! If people leave you because of it then **** them!! Talk to me bun bun!! Im here for you!!
babydolljax[OP]
16.04.2021 02:26
Linkwhat would i even talk about..?
WEARWOLF3
16.04.2021 02:28
LinkWhatever thats making you sad and whatever you need to talk about
babydolljax[OP]
16.04.2021 02:35
Linkin a nutshell, im still feeling stressed and upset about squirrly, i've been holding onto the feeling of us before the 10 even though i know i shouldnt, i've been stressed and upset about school, especially now that they've divided religion class into male and female classes, my parents dont accept me, my shcool doesnt accept me, i feel much better when sad if its treated with physical comforting like hugging and holding but i have nobody,and i feel so ****ing annoying for venting
WEARWOLF3
16.04.2021 02:41
LinkWell there are always key holes in every problem. You just need to really really look for them. I may not have all the answers but you do. You know ways to block all of this. You just don't see the answer yet. I may have some advice but if it doesn't work then all I can give is comfort and if you need anything, I will provide.
Now with Squirrly. What about him do you not want to let go? What causes you to hold on??
And if school and your family doesn't except you then they can go screw it because this is America. You get to choose who you wanna be and what you wanna do. Also I'm sure your family supports you. They are just hiding it because they want to stay true to their beliefs.
babydolljax[OP]
16.04.2021 11:21
Linki was talking about you and me, not squirrly about letting go
but squirrly has been getting on my nerves and it took me only yesterday night to really see what was going on. like
ACTUALLY see.
He called me a cunt, misgendered me, tried to deadname me (( even though he didn't even know my deadname )), victimized himself, said that i just used him as a replacement before you came back even though i really did love him
thats why i wanted to try dating him again for another 2 times
but all he did was make me cry and hate myself more
I really really did love him, but he just doesn't see that
and i know how my family and school feels about me, and i've called them out
but all they've told me is that they're worried and that praying is the answer and that god loves all
if god loved all why do you say that homosexuals will burn?
just out of spite of them today, im wearing my long socks that say Love with a rainbow heart
just to piss them off
because i am just done with this ****ing school
babydolljax[OP]
16.04.2021 12:13
LinkJust a little cherry on top, he yelled at me over phone twice before
WEARWOLF3
16.04.2021 21:28
LinkOh. I am so sorry about that. Maybe he's just toxic? You should put space between you and him. Ignore his negative comments. If he truly cared for you he wouldn't have done or said any of that. I hope he wont do it again because you deserve better.
And if your parents don't support you being trans then why are they going along with this and not stopping you? Sometimes parents think that what they do is best for their children. My grandparents do not support gays, not at all. So I have to try to avoid telling them about my gay friends because I don't want them to yell at me or lecture me or hate me more then they already do. Sometimes family is complicated. You don't know what they feel or want from you. It's best to stick to your ways and what you enjoy and don't let anyone stand in your way cause you can be yourself. Its America. They do not call it the land of the free for nothing. Sure there are bad people in America but that doesn't mean you should let them control over you. Stand strong. Stay positive
WEARWOLF3
16.04.2021 21:28
LinkYou can get through this I know you can
babydolljax[OP]
16.04.2021 21:30
LinkOh yes he is certainly toxic, he just wont admit it
And yeah, idgaf about what my parents or school has to stay. If they dont like it then suspend me, see if i care
Can you adopt me 👉👈
WEARWOLF3
16.04.2021 22:14
LinkOf course!!
babydolljax[OP]
16.04.2021 23:10
Link<3 <3