alr now- so i got some painting accessories as a gift thing, and later today earlier I was gonna paint a tree on some paper and then my dad said i should research what this painting accessories before Emptying it. i don't wanna and i talked about my mom about it and yet she thinks i go angry all the time. Well guess what, I don't even feel like living anymore, I feel angry issues getting in and a bit of pain since i don't feel loved I don't even know if they love me and what is real or not. I feel fake-