sweet like honey lavender.. keep on running back to her..

You say that You dont wanna hurt me But look at what you've done You've hurt me more than anything You really have That "I dont wanna hurt you" bullshit. So that was a ****ing lie You've hurt me and hurt me and hurt me. You still are. You hurt me every ****ing day. Sometimes I even wanna ignore you. But I dont. Cause that's what a friend does.... I just wanna ****ing die already...

I really shouldnt... others are way ****ing sadder than me.... others go through more than me... others.... others are better than me....

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I really dont wanna exist.... pain is what makes me.. well.. me.... why....? I loose all the people I love... first my cousin... then my great grandpa.... and now everything is slowly crumping on top of me.. hitting me right in the heart.. I'm so ****ing sensitive... I shouldnt be like this.. immean.. and stubborn and...and....and....................and................