I'm gonna commit suicide at some point in my life. this is sad, and i lost somebody in my life to suicide, too

I am depressed, this is mean, and i feel like dying, suicide isnt a joke, and please don't make fun of suicide in anyway.

Please i love you, don't make me do something i regret.... i will remember you forever, and ever, and ever. I am crying just thinking about you, and my hands shaking, suicidal thoughts in my mind, and im just saying in my head...."What will i do without a person like her?! Why hasn't she visited me?! I should die!" i feel depressed without you so please, god, let her back in my life... i have commited many sins, been caught stealing, been doing self-harm, bcause i love you. i might die on my 20th birthday or my 10th... which is next month, and if i find a reason to live, it'll be on my 20th then. Deserae Perez, I love you.

Deserae perez, are you out there? Please find me, i miss you so much, i love you, and please i can't live without you in my life, you were a sister to me, please come back.... I might commit suicide, i love you so much,please appear in my life again somehow! I need you to see me, i am broken without you, today at school i was talking to my friends and we were talking about summer school and i asked Jullisa, "Did you see a girl named Deserae?" and she nodded yes... i started to tear up, and violet was like, "Rubi, are you ok?" and i said no and so i got up from the lunch table(it was lunchtime)and threw away my food, andi felt tears on my face and i went to the bathroom, and my friends followed me in. i started to talk to them and after that they left and i cried until recess was over and so i went in line, face all wet. Deserae perez, went to lake marie elem. for 2 years, had 1 bff, had felt as if she had a 2nd sister Do you remember me? I love you so much, i just want to see you, it like we had a connction.

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