Latley I´ve been feeling, less..like myself? I don´t really know how to explain it. I just feel. Ugly. Too.. Big. And just so useless. I don´t know. What´s wrong with me?

I think I forgot to take my anxiety pill today, I´m not sure because I don´t pay THAT much attention but.. I think that when I don´t take it I get, emotions easier overwhelm me? My sister decided to give me the silent treatment over something dumb, as per normal. But instead of being unbothered like normally it made me so upset, then she went and ´told on me' even though I did nothing wrong. Normally it wouldn´t bother me THAT much but this time it gave me such a.. intolerable grief that felt..invalid? It was strange, but it caused me to start cutting again because it was so intense. I used a screwdriver to cut my skin and a knife, then just scratched my arms and thighs.

No matter how hard I try. Nothing works.

hi :>

I hope you feel better soon! <3