I’m so tired of waking up everyday thinking things will go great and watching things repeat...

I’m so ****ing tired of having to wake up in my weak and failing body KNOWING people have it worse I’m so ****ing selfish

But I’m also So ****ing Tired...

I don’t want to wake up anymore...

If I’m being completely honest...I wouldn’t even be here without Tyson. He’s the only thing I can relay on right now. The one thing I know I can keep in control Everything else is so difficult My constant body aches The nonstop crying The whole drifting off into space I can’t do ANYTHING when that’s all that happens during the day I go to bed early because I’m ****ing useless now I’ve fulfilled my duties on earth. So why is it so goddamn hard to leave..