Im sorry...im not good enough for you..your just so perfect and im a mean ugly ass person..i change for you without u knowing i try to be more noice..i beg you so much..i annoy you a lot and i am always in a pain with you knowing..im sad and mad at my self..but i never feel bad about myself i just brush it off and just put myself in more pain..i lock myself in my room and cry and starve myself..i try to help you but i make it like im just joking about it but im not im just being stupid and annoying..i just want to change..i get mad at everything and just brush it off and but pain on me..i am going threw metal abuse im not good for anyone and..ugh..im just so frustrated with myself..