I am hurting so much emotionally that the pain is turning physical

I want to cry ao bad i want to cry it all out and be better

I wish I was a better girlfriend

This really just shows how little i can do to help someone and make them feel better. He was my everything and I couldn't even help someone who means that much to me

I want it to stop

I want to stop being stupid

And saying stupid things

I hate everyone why cant they just be nice to him

Why do They have to treat him bad amd why cant I help

I was just trying to help but i dont know how to help and i was doing such a bad job that I probably made him want to do it more so he wouldnt have to deal with me I should have been better about it

What if i was part of the reason?

He wanted to do it

I wouldnt be surprised I make a lot of things worse

He even said what he thinks of me

It wouldnt be me assuming he said it he said how bad I made him feel he said all of that and why would he say it if it wasnt true