I feel like all my friends hate me I feel like everyone I'm close to only hangs around because I provide love and affection I've actually seen two of my friends talking about me behind my back one openly says that I'm annoying two of my friends barely even want me to sit by them one of my "friends" always says "oh god" when I show up to class only two of my friends actually shows me affection, and even then I feel like it's out of pity