look I never wanna be here again and I don't trust you guys to understand what I'm feeling but almost every day I would scratch myself and no I'm not kidding I even spoke about being depressed to my parents about it and they didn't believe me also my dad and brother bother me almost every weekend and you may think "that's not so bad" no we don't have are own house so I'm staying with my grandmother who's very rude and me and my mom are sick of it and my depression was passed down by my mother and I don't wanna feel sorry and more sad than ever look I used to be so happy in are big house ,my own room,and being with my mom but now I feel like there's no one to talk to and wile making music my mom has high standards of me being positive BUT WHY SHOULD I HIDE MY FEELINGS and the only true friends are online and my friends irl are moved to another place so I only trust you guys and I feel like I already lost most of my friends for being rude or edgy so I'm sorry for not being as positive as I used to TmT