late. its getting late. i should leave now. but. I'm just too upset recently?? brawadis cools me down a bit but yeesh- hm.. downstairs. whats next to the living room downstairs? my kitchen. whats in a cabnit in my kitchen downstairs near the living room? a sharp knife. i could EASILY go down there and wouldn't waste anytime to grab it and either cut myself deeply or stab my chest. they both would be painful but at least no one would care if I suffer- they only care if I'm down, ig, eh, go to sleep and stop complaining. goodnight