Howi feel after my mom keeps constantly asking what happened to me why i dont talk anymore why i dont like to go out with friends anymore😂😂

I feel like a little kid i dont know how to grow up i feel small i dont know what im doing everyone is telling me to be more mature but i still feel like a little kid everyone is telling me to stop acting like a child and i should know better but i feel like a child

I cant relate to people everyone seems so different than me i can only connect to fictional characters i see myself in them i feel like them i get lost and confused am i them or am i a person i dont know everything is very confusing and scary i just want to sleep for a very long time ill take the risk of a nightmare

I like it when I can play pretend like a little kid its fun to think im just a character from a piece of media im not my body im just alive i dont feel alive sometimes i feel like a corpse i like it better when i can pretend but sometimes i pretend too much and reality becomes confusing i dont know which is which i think something is wrong with me maybe but its ok because i feel happy when i can pretend sometimes

I like making up my own stories because everyone will all be happy in the end and none of my friends will die or leave me or hate me we get to all be happy

In my stories nothing bad will become permanent just how life should be everyone should be happy and good and everyone can be a good person and have people who love them and care about them

Do you like my stories my stories are real to me and it makes me happy when i can be in the stories but then someone always has tocome ruin it and make me be a real person

Just leave me alone to my thoughts i can fix everything myself i can help everyone

If i just try really hard i can do anything i can help everyone

I love all my friends im so happy they havent died i wonder how long this will last i hope forever that would be amazing we could all be so happy i love my friends

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