Mmm panic attacks are fun

this account reminds me of myself in the past the derpressed suicidal me and i dont like it i hate it i was always quick to snap i was all was uptight im more uptight in a different way now i just seprate myself from the rest of my family ive been less depressed and more uptight and scared of everything and everyone i just im afriad of socializing but i want to socialize but im afraid of making the wrong move ...again ive also been sleeping more alot actually and i me being alone as me learn new things about myself like didnt know i could make new clothes out of old ones and i met the stray cat thats always out side when i am i nicknamed hher fury and shes adorable she the only living thing i trust right now and i found out a few weeeks ago that i agender so art makes me happy i dont want to leave this account behind because i worked so hard and this is where i started hhh so im doing fine im just hhh hghgrg right now in my mind more uptight thats all and im more tired

and my me actaully tryng to physically move has gone down so i have one crutch because my hip is shit my parents are scared for me to get my hip surgrey because of the cough cough problem in the hospitals so like we will wait during the summer because in almost done with puberty and the doctors thought it would fix itself but it diddnt and ive done my weight lose jonurny so im proud of myself actaully for doing that